The Motivatah

Something I have learned in this last year is that nothing is as serious or monumental in this life as we make it out to be. Life is going to end, whether we build an underground bomb shelter or not. Eventually, we all have to go Home. So what do you have to loose? As Oprah said in Life Class "Your life is not getting any longer, its just the opposite". Every day that we live unfulfilled and unhappy, is another day wasted.

As I watched my mom go through the stages of cancer, eventually to succumb to the inevitable, I made a very conscious decision to live life differently. Ironic how death can not only take a life but give a life too. This is not to say that I wasn't previously living, but not the way I wanted. I have had a great life; starting with a great childhood. My teen years were fun, a little dangerous, but fun. Then at 19, I met the man of my dreams and started the family I always knew I wanted. Something went awry in my adult years as I was swallowed whole by life. Not only did I decide to have three kids, who by the way I wanted, I was also working, going to school, and trying to keep up with the day to day goings on of a family of 5. I was driven to be successful in life, always looking at the glass as half full. I was doing a pretty good job of juggling until my mom became sick.It's a little hard to be positive and driven in the midst of grief. 


This last year of being down gave me time to look at life through very different glasses and to re-assess what I want out of the rest of my time here on Earth. My mother has given me a gift; the gift of clarity. It is hard to describe, but I can see my life with more crisp, clearness than ever before. I definitely do not have all of the answers nor am I done with struggles, but I am ready to face what life throws my way as I have faith that everything will work out just the way it is supposed to. I know that this is my one and only chance to live and I refuse to blow it. I am ready to take the winding road of life, with all of its twists and turns, to where ever it shall take me. As Stephen Shapiro said "There are no wrong decisions, just decisions".